My Inside

My Inside | November 21, 2020

Track list

1. Come See Me Drowning (4.38)
2. A Child Still Grows (2.33)
3. Heal What I Am (4.40)
4. Make Me Bleed (2.01)
5. A Quarter To One (7.26)
6. Healing Colors (2.05)
7. Realize (6.49)
8. Love Made Me Bleed (5.40)
9.When It Rains (4.30)
10. Mama (3.11)
11. Sleep Will Never Lie (4.18)
12. Inside out (4.49)

All songs and lyrics composed by Mikael Syväjärvi
Cover artwork by Mikael Syväjärvi

Fredrik Greneskog: electric guitars, keyboard, slide guitar (songs 7, 8, 9, 11)
Lennart Olsson: drums
Mikael Syväjärvi: guitars, bass, lead vocal, backing vocals, voice, keyboards

Mixed and mastered by Mikael Syväjärvi at Growing Records
Released by Growing Records

01 Come See Me Drowning

It was an early morning
A sign of it all
I saw the place falling
Heard someone call
Come see me drowning
There’s no one here
On the other side, on the other side
I will find

My Inside

You can not see my pain
You can not hear that I pray
I could be me

You can not feel my pain
You can not hear when I say
I am still me

My Inside

02 A Child Still Grows

This life so old
I’ve turned cold
Years gone by
A child still grows

A youth so strong
Now this pain
Years pass by
A child still grows

03 Heal What I Am

Waking up just to sleep again
Coffee and sandwich before breakdown
Dreaming of dying again
I wish tears would heal what I am

It’s 8 AM, plenty of time today
I wear no make up, cry without traces
Screaming inside to pretend
A beautiful face never cries

04 Make Me Bleed

I have been around for a while
I was born twice, once as a child
I never feel when I am alive

My veins are open
Make me bleed

05 A Quarter To One

So let me die… so let me fly away from these skies

A quarter to one, it’s too late and I’m tired of this place and time
so let me die… so let me fly away
believe in this heart of mine

A quarter to one, reluctant to laugh at any expense
so let me die… so let me fly away
a wing-beat from a callous heart

A quarter to one, the missing piece in the jeering puzzle maze
so let me die… so let me fly away
for me my quarter is home

A quarter to one, soon an angel sleeps next to me
so then I’ll die… so I’ll fly away
Is the undone my will?

06 Healing Colors

Instrumental

07 Realize

Tonight I am here
I will fear
I am falling

This life, a dream
I was never haunted
By anything at all
I came across the little small talks
The life, the dream
Nothing at all
Follow me now
I could never realize me
It was only me
That could grab this life into another step, of mankind
I could never dream what I could be
I could never realize
What could have been me

08 Love Made Me Bleed

Love pour down, draining me
Faceless friends comfort me
I don’t need you, you don’t need me
Bury you down, down away

away

I wish my dreams each night were clean
Shame and fear never stay
I could change the way we feel
I don’t need you, you don’t need me

come here with me

09 Let It Rain

one, two, three
let it rain
it becomes magic
leaves no stains

When it rains

I become pure
body and soul
take away the pain
for a while

I’ll find my own way

I am scared
to heal
I remain clean
in the rain

10 Mama

Mama, I’m here
I was only dreaming
I was only screaming tonight

Mama, don’t fear
I was only dreaming
I was only screaming for a while

Mama, you’re here
You were only dreaming
You were only screaming tonight

Mama, stay here
You were only dreaming
You were only screaming for a while

Mama

11 Sleep Will Never Lie

There is a feeling, a feeling that pulls me out of here
A kind of strange but familiar road to somewhere where I am cold
I stay awake, afraid that if I move I will not leave from here
And sleep I’ll never try
Sleep will never lie

Life slows down through me, passing of time and space
I can feel so much more, when I am away from who I am
I sense love stays, as a memory that is close
And sleep I’ll never try
Sleep will never lie

12 Inside Out

My Inside Out